Multifaceted, Or Do I Just Have Commitment Issues?

[NOTE: This blog post is all word vomit, so if this doesn't make any grammatical or mechanical sense, forgive me. I just needed to get this thought down.]

I never have a hard time starting new things, but I always have a hard time committing to it.  I'm not talking about relationships with people, but relationships with the things I'm passionate in.

I have experience in so many things; starting in my toddler years with ballet, then to Karate and Tae Kwon Do. When I went into elementary school, I was still in Tae Kwon Do, but I was also playing violin at one point. Then by the time I was 10 or 11, I was still in Tae Kwon Do, but I sang, played drums, guitar, and piano.  Then suddenly by 13, I didn't want to be in Tae Kwon Do anymore even though I was about 3 belts away from a Black belt, and I wanted to keep playing drums and percussion in the marching, concert, and jazz bands, while being on the junior varsity basketball team at the private school I went to. Before the end of middle school, I got injured and had to stop marching, so I needed something else to do. By high school, I'm in the Culinary academy and I become passionate in that, but doing photography at the same time. College comes around and I want to be a photojournalist, then I go to a college that doesn't offer photojournalism, but because I still wanted to pursue art, I needed to make a decision about what I wanted to do. I was then told the Digital Media Arts program I was in was a 5 year program and if I wanted to graduate early, I had to change my major; I chose PR. While I was a PR major, I was still able to do art, but them my passion for connecting to people through social media became my focus, and finally, here we are, almost three years out of undergrad, finally sticking with something. I'm pursuing my Masters in Arts Management and focusing on combining my undergraduate degree with my Masters degree. Professionally, I've done retail and customer service, food service and management, events management, web design, business card design, and now social media consulting and management. My experience in all of the hobbies I've taken up have taken up so much of my mental and physical capacity, but is it multifaceted-ness, or is it lack of commitment to one activity?

This is the thing: not only can it be a little overwhelming, but being multifaceted is both a blessing and a curse. We can have so many interests in so many different things, can be really good at all of those things, and never get bored, but when it comes to professionalism, can we really do all of the things we want to do at once, or do we have to pick one? Am I allowed to be a multifaceted, creative individual with tons of interests and passions, or do I have to put one profession next to my name? As a child, I was told I had to be a part of a bunch of social activity, but as an adult, I was told I had to stick with something, and to choose something that will make me a good amount of money to survive. One day, I would love to go back to cooking and own and operate a restaurant, but will I actually have the capacity to do that and social media management or event planning or tarot reading or art all at the same time? Will I make money off of one endeavor while not making money off of another one? Is money even that important when you're multifaceted? Of course, this is where entrepreneurialism comes in, but even then there's a limit to how many things we can do without exhausting ourselves.

This is a really tough situation to try to make sense of, and while on my journey to independence, I plan of figuring this out. Of how long it will take to maneuver, I'm not sure. All I can do now, is commit, not just to myself, but to my passions, and try to do everything I can to satisfy my busy mind and my multifaceted soul.

Lonnie Pauls